How hurt is hurt ?? =/

How does it really feel ?? Is it as bad as rubbing salt on a wound ?? Or is it like you're being impaled ?? Well honestly I haven't really went through this but all I could see is people around are truly in pain .. They go really emotional, their world is like upside down, they can't concentrate on what they are suppose to do and so on ............. I am really confused and concerned seeing them facing these problems ..

I'm a by stander just looking from the side, looking at their appearances, looking at their facial expressions, looking at their upside down situation .. I don't feel what they feel, I try to empathize them but still I really just can't understand .. Or maybe I should really go through what they have went through only I can really feel what they feel .. But honestly I sort of went through the same thing but I wonder whether that counts or not cause it's a really complicated relationship .. Well that didn't really go well for me, but still I managed to move on .. *winks*

Well what I was saying is about a break up .. Pretty much everyone out there have went through a break up .. It could be a good break up or it maybe a really bad shaped break up .. Some moved on, some cried over and over about it, some can't forget about it, some just don't care and others have their way to handle their own break ups .. Different people have their own style of handling their break ups ..

So as a person like me (a by stander) would be either really supportive to our friends that are going through a break up, or some my choose to be ignorant .. We couldn't do much as a by stander, what we can do is lend them a shoulder to cry on or give some little advice or so .. And people always say first cut is the deepest, I wonder if it is true or not .. Hmm .. But I love the song First Cut is the Deepest by Rod Steward .. =D ..

I just hope that people out there facing a break up can really move on as soon as possible, try not to let this break up be an obstacle to you .. Cause there are so many people out there waiting for us to get to know them .. Don't be too emotionally attached, don't hide yourself in a box, widen you circle and make more friends .. Cause you'll never know who will be your next girl/boy out there .. =D .. Some may even say maybe god wants you to try out a few times before you get to choose the right one .. You could either agree or disagree with it ..

Just one thing, everything is in our hands, we are the ones to decide what we want, so it's all up to us .. And I always said Believing in yourself that matters .. So cheers alright .. =) ..

Butterflies .. =) ..

Love is like a butterfly .. It goes where it pleases and it pleases where it goes ..

December

Christams and New Year .. Woots ..

NA .. =) ..

Hmm .. Finally I get to watch a movie, it's been awhile since I last watched a movie .. =) .. Went out with Vic to watch Ninja Assassin .. Hmm .. Overall I rate 6/10 .. Movie was okay not too bad not too good .. Or maybe because it's acted by Rain .. Lol .. =) ..

Well okay talking bout today's outing, went out with Vic this afternoon .. Town was pretty jam I wonder why, took me like an hour or more to reach her house .. =/ .. So I decided to head to One Utama to go for an outing, cause I think she doesn't like to hang out in Sunway Pyramid .. *Winks* .. =Þ ..

So it took like another hour or less to reach One Utama, hmms PJ is jam as well .. =/ .. So we're like pretty hungry and we wanted to head to Sushi Zanmai cause it's been awhile since I last ate Zanmai .. *Craving for it for so long* .. Hehe .. But damn, Zanmai was full and the line is pretty long + we're pretty hungry and decided to look for other restaurants .. So I suggested we eat in this chocolate shop in One Utama, was actually walking around to look for it .. and then Vic found it one floor below us .. Lol .. *She's so smart .. xD .. So we had late lunch at Chocolate .. Food's good but I love the dark Belgium Chocolate, slurrp slurrp .. Hehe ..

So we makan n chit chat for quite sometime and decided to watch movie .. She's so busy but she had watch most of the movies that is currently show on air .. Luckily she have not watched Ninja Assassin, so we decided to watch it .. =) .. Went to the new wing GSC but we couldn't get a seat cause it's fully booked, end up she took me to a 'tour' in One Utama .. Lol .. xÞ .. So we passed by old wing's GSC, and I suggested why not we checked whether are there tickets, and yeah luck was by our side and we managed to get good seats at a cheaper price .. Thanks for tips on getting good seats .. *winks* ..

So after movie we head to AC to meet up with Justin, Ho, Min Ray and Lai .. Hmmph, pity her cause she has to sit there and listen to us talking crap there .. Felt bad actually cause I think she was superbly boring and was twitting away I guess .. =/ .. Sorry yeah .. =/ ..

So we chat n chat and everybody ciaoed at 10pm.. =) .. Picked up my poker chips from Justin, thanks a million !!! It's been a long time since I wanted to get poker chips and I finally got it .. Really owe you 1 .. =) .. Next meal is on me alright ?? xÞ .. Later on send Vic back and I head home .. =) .. It's was a really tiring day but it's fun !! xD .. Always felt good and had much fun going out with Vic and the guys .. =) ..

Oh well, I will be heading to Malacca later on .. So will not be around till this Sunday .. I'm heading down there to watch SMM Dota Tournament, yeah it's Malaysia's most prestigious Dota Tournament .. Too bad we didn't participate and again, dreams are shattered year after year due to my noobness I admit .. =) .. Oh well, maybe next year ?? Hmm .. See how it goes .. =) .. Well we will be heading down to support the International Dota teams rather than Malaysian's Dota team .. Hehe .. So yeah .. Till then next post !!! Hehe ..

p/s : Thank you .. =) ..

Existence .. =) ..

Existence .. =) .. Yeah ..

I am sure sometimes people out there would think whether we really exist in people's mind .. When you're done you seem to think that people tend to forget about you, don't care about you and everything .. Somehow or rather the negative side of ourselves makes us things that we don't exist in other people's mind .. Sounds pretty funny but it's true, I know there are times we felt left out, we felt being isolated, we felt being forgotten, we felt like as though we don't exist in this world .. =) ..

Then we always ask ourselves for all the things we have done and yet people don't appreciate and all, screwing this & screwing there .. Just like a small kid whining .. Sounds funny but that's what we all do .. Don't be surprise and don't deny that we don't these stuffs, in fact at times we're worst than the kids out there .. =) .. The shittiest part of all is put a blame on others !! Roflmaololftw !!! This is one of the worst things that people like to do, blame, blame and blame .. Human nature I suppose .. =) ..

Our presence is always felt whether we exist or we don't exist .. At times you may think that, **** man why person Y didn't call me out when person Y went out with a friend of yours but didn't ask you out along .. You'll be banging walls, screaming your lungs out, emo **** the whole fucking day !! Yeah just like kids .. LOL !!! .. But the thing is we never knew what was actually happening, you whine and whine but you wouldn't know why they didn't call you out .. It could be anything from A-Z, but only they themselves know .. Like seriously, why put yourself in a hard position which makes you a small kid which kills your own cells which brings down your morale which spoils your day and the list goes on ................................... =) .. Yeah it's like a chain reaction .. =) ..

So again ask yourself why you want to think what people think about you ?? Isn't it stupid ?? Lol .. For example you went for a date and you kept pressuring yourself and ask whether your dates likes you or not, this and that and make yourself a long ****ing list and put yourself in a position which kills yourself .. Why not worry less, just be normal, be yourself, that's all .. Simple as ABC isn't it ?? =) .. If you're wanted, people will eventually come to you .. =) .. And it's always up to us to say a yes or a no .. =) ..

And when comes to situations with yes or no answers, just be simple .. A yes means a yes and a No means a no .. Don't go say yes but beat around bush which leads to a no or vice versa .. Why make things so complicated ?? =) ..

So please please be happy whether or not people forgot about you, doesn't know your existence, those primary school friends that totally forgot bout you, those who never say hi and ask about you, those friends that you have made but forgot bout you, and everything else .. Just remember that your presence is always felt, you always exist in this world whether or not you're good or bad .. Don't have to bother others if that forgot about you and what you did is always remembered .. So cheers .. =) ..

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Can't eat .. =/ ..

Hey hey .. Visited the dentist today .. The dentist put up some stuff which makes me unable to eat .. Pfft .. >< .. Pretty suffering now cause I can't really chew food stuff .. Hmm !!! .. Feels kinda hard to go out to eat the good food out there .. =/ .. Wonder how to go out for outing ?? =/ ..

Maybe I can take this opportunity to keep fit .. Eat less work out more .. Hehee .. =) .. Suffer abit alos never mind .. =) ..

Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhz .. Duno what to update .. Byez .. :P ..

New Comp .. =) ..

Hey hey .. Sorry for the lack of updates again .. Hehe .. Been playing around lately .. xD ..

So yeah I finally got my computer back .. Previously was using dad's lappy all the while, his lappy is so small that I've find it really troublesome playing games and even coming online .. Hehe .. Maybe because I'm used to my usual monitor .. =) ..

Basically, my computer has been down for like a month .. Yeah it's pretty long, and finally got it back with a few upgrades .. =) .. Spend like RM900 for some average upgrades, can't really afford to upgrade better specs cause I'm upgrading the computer all by myself .. I can't convince my dad to get me the upgrades so I just did it all by myself .. =) .. Well for now I'm pretty happy with the upgrades, cause my com was pretty old previously ..

Well with the spending and all, I might thought off taking up some jobs to earn back some extra pocket money .. Hehe .. Well, I've been on a spending spree after I got my 2 months salary .. It feels good when you're spending and especially it's your own money .. You wouldn't have the worries, the doubts and everything, you just spend on things you like .. Hehe .. =) ..

Hmm, now I'm still waiting for an answer from my friend whether I'm hired or not .. Pretty much looking forward to work .. =) .. If I don't get the job, I might try look for other jobs that are available out there .. =) .. Well if I don't have any jobs, then I will just chill and have fun during my holidays .. Hehe .. =) ..

Alright that's all for now .. =) ..

J's Body .. =) ..

I'm back and I'm free from exams people .. Sorry for the Missing In Action for a very long period of time .. =) .. I've been relaxing + lazing around till I did not have the time to update my dear blog .. Hehe .. xÞ ..

Okay first things first .. =) .. This semester exams, honestly I didn't really do well .. Was over confident and was not really prepared .. All the scores that I aim I don't think I will be able to achieve them .. I know it well enough, the effort and all that I put it in .. It's true it's always easier said than done .. =) .. But still I think I will be able to get some credits and distinctions .. *fingers crossed* .. Whatever results comes out I will be happy with it .. So Good Luck to me .. Hahaha .. =) (I always needed the luck )

So after the exams on Thursday, I went to watch Jennifer's Body with my uni mates : Chi Yen, Weng Tat, Darren, Su Ling & Yoke Fong .. J's Body was a pretty good movie, although it's quite predictable .. =) .. Megan Fox didn't look that hot as she was in Transformers 1 .. Yeah seriously, cause if I not mistaken she put on some weight which makes her look not as hot as before .. Even in Transformers 2 she's still slightly not that hot .. Lol .. Still love her the most when she's in Transformers 1 .. xÞ .. Well but still I recommend people out there to watch J's Body, rating for me is like 3.5/5 .. Or if you're obssessed with Megan Fox, just go ahead and watch it !!!!




And there's this song from the movie itself which is really nice .. So I'm here to share the lyrics and the video .. =) .. This song is really nice .. Trust me .. =) .. Enjoy .. =) ..

All alone in an empty room
nothing left but the memories of when I had my best friend
I don't know how we ended up here
I don't know but it's never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And I see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hanging over me
and your face, I can see...

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you
cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
until I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
about the places we would go when we were off
and all that we were gonna find.
And I remember our seeds grow
and how you cried when you saw
the first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
the branches hanging over me?
Can you see
the love you left inside of me?
in my face
can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cuz I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
until I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cuz you're not coming back
And you're not coming back
No-oo.. No-oo.. No
You're not coming back...
You're not coming back...

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'ms till here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here...

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here..

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here..

But you're not coming back.
And you're not coming back.
Cuz you're not coming back
until I'm set free
Go quiet through the trees.

Well I'm having a two months ++ break till I start my next semester .. Pretty long break huh ?? I actually love long breaks if I have things to do .. So I hope I can get a job and kill all the time I have .. Hehehehe .. =) .. So I shall be signing off now .. Looking at the clock now is 5 a.m in the morning .. I guess I'm being nocturnal again .. xÞ .. Will update my blog soon .. Ciaoz people ..

All American Rejects

(It took me quite some time to take this picture + I'm never good at photography .. Lol .. )

Gives You Hell !!! Tee hee .. Hell yeah, these are the AAR tickets .. Got it from my friend that got it from his friend that works in DIGI .. Lol ..

Actually I did not plan to go cause I've already saw them in MTV World Stage and actually I've pass my self-redeemed ticket to someone ... *winks* .. =Þ .. In addition to that my finals falls on 26th and 29th October, 2nd November and 5th November .. So happened they postpone the concert to 31st October even if it is on 10th October I wouldn't go too .. Hehe ..

But this friend of mine was so kind that he gave me so many passes .. So what I did was I gave the tickets to some people out there, they know who they are .. =Þ .. Well the remainder of the tickets, I will be going with WS, Theng & Kiang ..

I hope it's going to be damn fun on that very day itself .. Hope everything goes well .. =D .. For those who are going, I will see you all there !!!!

I'll be signing off by now .. I should be on study mode but I just got bored of studying, in fact I didn't really study .. Oops !!! .. Hehe .. Okay okay, I should not procrastinate and further waste more time lazing around .. Must focus on what I'm aiming for at the start of my semester .. Study smart and play hard .. Lol .. Well, okay for real this is the date I start my study mode ... So you wouldn't be seeing me online or maybe I will just pop up once awhile .. *fingers crossed* .. xÞ ..

So yeah .. Take care peeps and again don't miss me .. 3 weeks of MIA wouldn't be long .. =Þ ..

p/s : I updated upon your request .. *winks* .. xÞ
pp/s : Don't miss me yeah .. xÞ

Study Mode .. =D ..

Hey people .. =D ..

I went out on 11/10/2009 to celebrate Kiang's birthday (it's an early celebration) .. The attendees were WS, Theng, Soh, Birthday boy, KittyBerry, Chiu & Evon .. So we had lunch in Chillis and went on to play pool .. After pool head to Starbucks and chill .. Then we went to mamak and had our dinner .. Pretty fun day thou .. =D ..

Well a birthday shout out to Mr. Alvin Kiang Chee Siong, His 19 now and he's one of the kind .. Lol .. Rate him 8/10 .. Yeah .. Lol .. I just stole his picture from facebook .. So take a look at him .. xD .. He's turn on point is his deep dimples !! FTW .. =D .. Cool Huh ?? hehe .. Too bad this picture have no dimples .. xÞ




Okay enough bout him .. Later he bangga pulak .. Haha ..

Well I will be on study mode officially .. So I will be away for like 4 weeks till my finals is over .. Wohoo .. Can't wait till finals it's over .. Well while I'm away, I wish everyone out there good luck and have fun in whatever you're doing .. Well, if you need to talk to me, I'm always available despite the study mode that I'm having .. So yeah .. Don't hesistate to call me or something .. =) ..

So till then people .. Will catch up with the world soon .. Real soon .. Just hope that I won't get left out .. Lol .. Toodles people .. Don't miss me while I'm away .. Ciaoz people .. =D ..

Halo !!

Hey .. Finally I got the internet but my com yet .. =) .. Was pretty much sucked up few weeks back .. I don't have the internet and my com crashed .. But I managed to finish up my assignments before it crashes .. Lol .. But still I was having problems printing my assignments on the dateline .. I was pretty shock but I was still able to fix things up and pass up my assignments on time .. =D ..

I have blogger's block actually .. I don't know what to write .. Lol .. Finals are coming in 3 weeks time, maybe study mode should be activated .. I will see how it goes .. =) .. Till then .. =D

Therapy for the Soul

Which day is the most beautiful day of your life ??
Today

What's the easiest thing to do in life??
A mistake

What's the greatest obstacle ??
Fear

The most profound tragedy in life ??
Abandonment

The root of all evil ??
Egotism

The most wonderful entertainment & fun ??
Work, of course !!

The greatest failure ??
Lack of faith

The best teachers ??
Kids

The absolute prime need ??
Contact with another human being

What brings a person the greatest feeling of satisfaction ??
Being of help to somebody & being appreciated

The greatest mystery ??
Death

The most serious human failing ??
Lack of a sense of humor

The greatest Enemy ??
Deceit & lies

The worst emotion ??
Anger

The most wonderful gift ??
Forgiveness

The #1 most desired necessity ??
One's own home

The quickest way forward ??
Certainty

The most wonderful feeling ??
Inner peace

The best defense ??
A smile

The best medicine ??
Optimism

The greatest might on earth ??
Faith

The people whom we need most of all ??
Our parents

What's the most beautiful of all ??
Love

Intelligence without love makes you perverse.
Fairness & justness without love makes you inflexible & stern.
Diplomacy & tact without love makes you a hypocrite.
Success without love turns you arrogant.
Wealth without love makes you mean & tight-fisted.
Poverty without love turns you into radical.
Beauty without love makes you capricious.
Authority & power without love lead to tyranny.
Labor without love turns you into slave.
Naivety without love deprives you of values.
Prayer & worship without love turns you into egotist.
Faith without love turns you into a fanatic.
Bearing your cross in life without love becomes a terrible burden.


Life Without Love Loses Its Meaning !!!!

Tonight It's Going to be A Good Night ..

I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

Tonight's the night, let's live it up
I got my money, let's spend it up
Go out and smash it like oh my God
Jump off that sofa, let's get, get off

I know that we'll have a ball
If we get down and go out and just lose it all
I feel stressed out, I wanna let it go
Let's go way out spaced out and losing all control

Fill up my cup, mozoltov
Look at her dancing, just take it off
Let's paint the town, we'll shut it down
Let's burn the roof, and then we'll do it again

Let's do it, let's do it, let's do it, let's do it
And do it and do it, let's live it up
And do it and do it and do it, do it, do it
Let's do it, let's do it, let's do it

'Cause I gotta feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

Tonight's the night
(Hey!)
Let's live it up
(Let's live it up)
I got my money
(My pay)
Let's spend it up
(Let's spend it up)

Go out and smash it
(Smash it)
Like oh my God
(Like oh my God)
Jump off that sofa
(Come on!)
Let's get, get off

Fill up my cup
(Drink)
Mozoltov
(Lahyme)
Look at her dancing
(Move it, move it)
Just take it off

Let's paint the town
(Paint the town)
We'll shut it down
(Let's shut it down)
Let's burn the roof
And then we'll do it again

Let's do it, let's do it, let's do it, let's do it
And do it and do it, let's live it up
And do it and do it and do it, do it, do it
Let's do it, let's do it, let's do it, do it, do it, do it

Here we come, here we go, we gotta rock
(Rock rock rock rock rock)
Easy come, easy go, now we on top
(Top top top top top)
Feel the shot, body rock, rock it, don't stop
(Stop stop stop stop stop)
Round and round, up and down, around the clock
(Rock rock rock rock rock)

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday
(Do it!)
Friday, Saturday, Saturday to Sunday
(Do it!)
Get, get, get, get, get with us, you know what we say, say
Party every day, p-p-p-party every day

And I'm feelin', woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

I gotta feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

Woohoo

Party on in 16 hours time .. Wohooo .. Can' wait till it starts .. Hmm .. =D ..

p/s: and again .. =)

Partying Soon ..

Hell yeah !!! I'm going to a farewell party this Friday !!!! Really looking forward to it thou !!! Cause I've beeen boring these days !!! Arghhhhhhhhh, don't have the mood to study and all .. Hmm .. Don't ask me why I just don't have the mood .. Lol .. =) ..

I don't even know what to blog about .. Hmm .. This is how lifeless am I .. =? .. I will stop here .. Lol .. Shortest post ever .. xD

安靜 ..

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

睡著的大提琴
Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleeping cello

安靜的舊舊的
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Silently and worn out

我想你已表現的非常明白
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear

我懂我也知道
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure

你沒有捨不得
Ni mei you she bu de
You are not reluctant

你說你也會難過我不相信
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
Holding you and you accompanying me is only the past

希望他是真的比我還要愛你
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope that he loves you more than I do

我才會逼自己離開
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I force myself to leave

你要我說多難堪
Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

我根本不想分開
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I put up a smile and act as if nothing had happened

我沒有這種天份
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the talent

包容你也接受他
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
Embracing you and accepting him

不用擔心的太多
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

我會一直好好過
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I will live a good life

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why am I even giving in to you when we're breaking up

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the talent

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come this fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

睡著的大提琴
Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleeping cello

安靜的舊舊的
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Silently and worn out

我想你已表現的非常明白
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear

我懂我也知道
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure

你沒有捨不得
Ni mei you she bu de
You are not reluctant

你說你也會難過我不相信
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
Holding you and you accompanying me is only the past

希望他是真的比我還要愛你
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope that he loves you more than I do

我才會逼自己離開
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I force myself to leave

你要我說多難堪
Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

我根本不想分開
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I put up a smile and act as if nothing had happened

我沒有這種天份
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the talent

包容你也接受他
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
Embracing you and accepting him

不用擔心的太多
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

我會一直好好過
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I will live a good life

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why am I even giving in to you when we're breaking up

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the talent

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come this fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why am I even giving in to you when we're breaking up

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the talent

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come this fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

Footsal !!!

Yeah .. I went out for footsal after 2 months of not playing it .. Those that who came and played were Kev, WS, TL, Chun, Yaw, Jon, Bryan, Kok Peng, Chiu .. These people were worried whether I can play with my condition, I told them my leg is all good and insist on playing with them together .. =D ..

We played for like 2 hours but it seems like it was an hour or less .. Indeed time flies when we're having fun .. =/ .. Well, my ankle is all good, god bless didn't injured my ankle, but only felt some pain cause maybe the ankle is still week .. Overall the game is very nice, it's been awhile since we had that much fun ..

The shots from them are pretty awesome, just that the set pieces and the finishing at times failed .. Lol .. But couldn't blame them thou, we're not futsal kakis, so yeah .. xD .. Well, this could be the last game playing with Kev, as he's ciaoing soon .. And yeah pretty soon, guess we're going to miss him so much .. =/ ..

Well everyone is leaving to further their studies, depatures are part of life indeed, but I can assure that our friendship will last forever, no matter where we are in this world .. May it be in Aus, UK, Germany or other parts of the world, we'll still keep in touch and shall meet up whenever we always have the chance ..

Signing off, today it's a pretty tough day actually, classes start from 8am -5pm .. It's one of the most hectic day in Uni life .. + the footsal just now .. hmm I'm pretty drained up, I guess I should head to bed soon .. Ciaoz .. till then .. =D ..

9/9/09

Awesome date isn't it ?? =) .. Dates like these never happen twice in our life, it maybe be a good date for everyone but on the other hand it maybe a normal date for others .. It all depends on how we look at things .. =D ..

Went out with Vic to watch Ugly Truth yesterday .. It's a very good video, and indeed it's Ugly Truth .. So I recommend that everyone out there to watch this movie, it helps a little or so in understanding more bout men and women .. Yeah .. =D ..



Well I guess I've to get back on track with my revision, had too much of playing and didn't study much .. I've Statistics test this Friday, Macroeconomics and Accounting test on Monday .. I hope I have enough time to do the sufficient revision and do well in these test .. A small portion of marks do make a big difference, so yeah I should be studying by now .. Till then next time .. Tatas .. =D ..

p/s : It's pink, your favourite colour .. =Þ

September .. =)

This is the first post for the month of September .. =) .. Pretty much did nothing for the past few days .. It was suppose to be the month where I catch up with my studies, but I'm still lazing around and only did a lil bit of revision .. Procrastination happens here .. Lol ..

Well this month is pretty hectic, having a lot test this month .. 3 tests if I'm not mistaken but basically have not really started studying for it .. If flicking through do count as studying .. Haha .. And yeah I need to get back on track as I always say .. Hope I'm able to focus and do well in this test which eventually reduces the burden when I'm doing my finals ..

September have pretty much holidays so it is indeed a good month to catch up with studies .. haha .. I sound so nerd I know .. Lol .. If I'm not mistaken there are 3 public holidays .. It's 3 and it's good enough .. =P .. Just have to really make full use of these days .. Cheers .. =) ..

Well this is the month where two people are leaving for UK, same week different day .. I guess I will be able to send both of them .. But I will definitely send off the 1st person .. Well, both of them are leaving for UK to continue their studies and they're couples but both will be studying in different states in UK .. =D .. Hmm .. I hope there's a farewell party, I feel like organising but with the load of test coming in, I'm still considering whether to do or not to do .. Hmm .. Maybe I need to replan so I can make it up for them .. *Fingers Crossed* .. Hehe ..

So I shall be doing some revision already .. Hehe .. Or I can rest for one more day .. Can I ?? =Þ

Happy 19th Birthday .. =)

A big shout out Thanks to all those that wished me Happy Birthday .. Really appreciated your wishes .. =D .. Well I'm really happy for this year's birthday, even though I did not organise any party this year .. I guess this year it's not that happening .. =) .. But still it was a good birthday thou .. =D ..

Well I recall the past I used to go cc and game it all out during eve of merdeka then head home for party and all .. But this year it's all plain .. =D .. But I had lunch with my uncle and his family and my mum .. This is the first time I had lunch at TGIF, the food there was quite filling and the best part is the birthday wishes from them .. =) .. Well it was kinda cool, when they have their birthday song and their birthday chant for their customer .. Haha .. =D .. We went to TGIF in Wangsa Walk - new mall near my house .. =D .. Wangsa Walk is pretty small but I hope it's going to be happening and it will be a good palce to hang out .. =) ..

Well after lunch went back home and get some rest .. =D .. Then had dinner with my kai jie and mum .. Dinner was good as well .. So this was my birthday for this year .. Slow pace and steady but all good .. =D .. Maybe it is because had too much fun in penang so not really in the mood to make it a blast for my birthday .. =D ..

I need to get back to my studies .. It's a good start I suppose .. I'm 19 now .. A year older, got to be more matured now .. Hell Yeah .. Alright that's all for now .. Ciaoz .. =D ..

Penang .. =D ..

Heyz .. I'm back from Penang .. Had loads of fun in Penang .. =D .. I will upload the pictures pretty soon once i get the pictures from Kev .. =) ..

Well the trip to Penang was pretty fast .. We were gambling playing cards all the way till Penang from Pudu Bus Station .. Roflmao .. Haha .. It's been awhile since I last went to Penang, and it's completly different I suppose .. xD .. The funny thing is the moment we enter Penang Island, it started to rain .. The rain never stopped even when we left Penang .. I think Penang hates us .. Lol ..

The food in Penang is not as good we thought .. Maybe the good food in Penang is hidden .. Lol .. Indeed we need a penangnite to guide us around if we crave for good food .. =D .. But still I like the fried oyster from one of the shops in penang .. =D ..

Basically what we did in Penang was food, gamble & drink .. The only places that we visited in Penang was Kek Lok Si (pretty famous temple), gurney drive and batu feringgi .. These are the only places as the rain was pretty heavy and damn potong .. Lol .. We also had some issues in renting a car which delayed us from visiting around Penang ..

Hmm .. Pretty tired for now .. I guess I should just sleep .. Pretty lazy to update .. So till then .. =D .. Buh Bye ..

p/s : Did some changes .. =D ..

Assignments .. =D

Sorry for the lack of updates .. Was rushing my assignments even it's due next week .. I was rushing cause I'll be leaving for Penang this Thursday and be back this Saturday .. So I don't think I will have sufficient time to finish up my stuff if I don't do it before I leave for Penang .. Well It's 70% done and I hope I can finish it by today ..

Well there are things I would like to comment .. For those who felt it, I don't give a shit about you .. You can call me names or whatsoever or draw a line with me go ahead .. I'm just being straightforward here and I'm actually helping you all in your future undertakings (*indirectly*) .. Seriously cause it is not that whether I'm selfish or I'm being arrogant, cause I'm not that smart as you all think .. I know what I can do, and I'm just only learning new stuffs day by day .. I'm just the same as everyone out there and trying to improve myself from day by day ..

I can guide you on how to do the assignments but I have limited knowledge as well, I can only teach you what I know and I can't go beyond that .. I wouldn't restrict myself from sharing my knowledge with you people out there .. But if you were to request my assignments and ask to take a look it .. I could only turn you down .. I'm being biased here cause I only share assignments with those who are close with me and they know who they are (*winks*) .. I trust them more than I trust my new uni mates .. I mean not all my uni mates are like this only some have intentions to just be friends .. Seriously yeah, it's pretty obvious when you want something from me, that's what we all do at all times isn't it ?? You want something from others, you approach them and intend to get something from them .. I've been through these shits and I've went through worse shits and I know things pretty well .. So cheers .. =D .. So if you are truly my friend you would understand me .. =D ..

Well the fact is most of us here are pretty tied up to instructions they follow them blindly .. If it says A you will do A .. Even if A is wrong you still follow .. Come on why do you have to stick to instructions so blindly .. When it says at least 4 pages, you don't come and ask me I need to do 4 only right ?? Cause it's pretty annoying, you can do either don't do any or you can do 1000 pages cause everything is up to you .. You determine your marks, your future .. Not me .. I don't shape your future .. I'm not God cause even God don't shape your future, we are the ones who shape our own future .. It all comes to you in everything you do, whether it is the past, present or future .. It's all you .. You don't blame others but blame yourself for all your doings, you don't say damn he/she took my gf/bf, he/she back stab me, blame the parents for this and that (we should appreciate them for good ) or whatever shits that we use to blame it on others .. Some even blame their friends for leading them to smoking, drugs and so on .. Peer pressure my ass seriously !! Like I said it all comes to oneself in everything they do .. =) ..

So enough said .. It's always best to be independent and only seek help when it is needed .. Well I'm always here to lend a helping hand with limits of cause .. Yeah so .. Good luck in those who are doing assignments and have fun during the holidays .. Although it was suppose to be a study week break but I certainly blew it off .. Haha .. =) .. So I will be doing my report now .. I have to get my assignment done by today .. So signing off now .. Ciaoz .. =D ..

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It's pretty hard to control our emotions at times .. Wouldn't be amused if you see people around us emo once awhile .. Emotions control us all the time, which leads us to drastic actions .. =/ .. Being cool at times do help a little bit, hiding emotions is the worst I can do .. Sometimes it's good that if someone out there reach out to our problems and is there to talk to us .. Anyone would do of cause, as long as we feel comfortable talking to them .. =) ..

Well, I don't really let my emotions out .. It's pretty sucked up if I let them go, I myself don't even dare to look at the mirror if I let them go .. =/ .. It is always the same old thing that makes me loose control .. I had great patience, but once I let loose that's it .. =/ .. I don't know why it has to be always the same god damn **** reason that provokes me .. I seriously ****ing hate it .. =/ ..

Why they like to assume, why they like to judge, why they like to compare, why they want to restrict me, why they are so ****ing scared, why they want to pressure me, why they don't keep their promises, why they want to **** me for the same reason all the time .. These are the questions that always disturbing me .. =/ .. I've been facing these questions since I was form 2 .. These things build me up for what I am today .. May it be a failure or a success, I always stay strong to prove them wrong ..

Well it happened again today .. Lucky I managed to stay cool and control my emotions .. =/ .. It's pretty tough to go through things by myself after so many years .. But again this toughen me up (TTFU - Toughen The **** Up) .. Lol .. Yeah, so what I want to do from now on is to really focus focus and focus .. That's all I can do for now base on my situation, is focus on studies .. That's what they always wanted, I shall fulfill my dreams and part of their dreams I suppose .. If they want to threathen me, I just have to obey what they say .. I can't afford to lose this golden opportunity .. =/ .. They are my platform to success, are my everything but and yet I don't know how to appreciate them as they always say I care for friends more than them .. It's not that I don't appreciate them, I'm not a person that show many feelings, I do love them very much but I don't know how to express to them, I don't know why, I tried but I couldn't ..

If I were to type it out big in font 72 saying that I love them a lot that doesn't show my love towards them isn't it ?? I've been appreciating them since the day I was born, I was not born with a silver spoon, but I never blame them for anything .. I understand them, I love them so much, but I don't just express to them .. I don't get them gifts for Mother's Day, Father's Day, don't get them birthday present .. I gave them shitty results, shitty attitude, burden, worries, disappoinments and everything not that always want .. It all comes to me when it comes to these stuffs, I choose them cause I was obligated and distracted by the computer .. Indeed, this is the problem that make the questions about arise .. Doubts and hatred against me .. =/ ..

Well, honestly the invention of computers brought disaster compared to benefits .. This is what they thought and many other parents out there think .. I'm 100% sure bout this and I'm not assuming .. I'm sure a lot of parents scold/nag or whatever shit they do to their children cause of the computer or whatsoever technology that makes them a suckass .. I don't want to further to comment anymore cause it seems illogical to say things bout technologies as a disaster .. =/ .. Think twice for those parents who state these stuffs .. =) ..

Well should be signing off by now .. Hope everything ends tonight .. =/ ..

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight,
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

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The Reason .. =D

Pretty much an old song but still it's one of the best song that I've ever heard .. Just can't stop listening to it after MTV World Stage .. Love this song so much .. =D ..

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

p.s The Reason is you .. =) ..

MTV World Stage Rawks !!

Went to MTV World Stage yesterday .. It's really really awesome !!! It's consider my first time attending concert (went to MJ's concert when I was 6 or 7 .. Does that count cause I was sitting down .. xD)!! Legs are aching but still it's worth all the performance(Boys like Girls, Hoobastank, All American Reject!!) Pretty cool !! Woohoo ..

So I left house around 12 and reached there around 1 .. Got myself a valet parking cause it's more convenient and it's only rm8 .. I guess parking inside pyramid is also around that price .. So had lunch with Gavin and his friends .. After lunch went to Popular to read some books .. Was reading Cristiano Ronaldo's biography while waiting for Vic to come .. xÞ .. While it's pretty interesting bout Ronaldo, was hoping to get the book but it cause like rm100++ .. Pretty expensive .. Haha ..

After she arrived we went straight to lagoon .. Lagoon was packed with loads of people .. Mainly because of the MTV World Stage .. We managed to get a spot near the front line, view was pretty clear and station there for 7 hours .. Yeah .. Pretty crazy, we did not go for breaks and all .. Was pretty focus on all the performance .. =D .. Everything was all good, just that some retard Ms are pissing me off .. Bloody touching people and taking advantage on those foriegners .. Sigh .. = = .. Really typical Ms, making a fool of themselves and brand themselves as Malaysians .. **** .. =D ..

Something I noticed about the crowd there is they are pretty crazy, the jumps, the screams, the dance and everything .. Pretty interesting .. Haha .. Malaysians can sing pretty well, lol .. They can pronounce the lyrics pretty accurate, better than I do .. Lol .. Amazing, even those typical chinese and Ms, seriously they can sing along !! Owned .. Haha .. Claps for these people and I salute you guys .. =D .. Other than that, I can see people throw things here and there, bottles, fans .. LOL ..

I think I should be signing off for now .. Time to get back to study .. Haha .. Ciaoz .. and again MTV World Stage roxx .. =D ..

p/s : I had a good time despite the tiring legs and back pain .. =)

Test ???

First I went through the operation and I thought I was fit as fiddle, and now came flu, cough, fever .. What's next ?? Pretty pissed off with the condition I'm going through right now .. Is it a test from god or something ??

Currently, suffering from bad flu, serious cough which I can feel the pain rushing through my spines whenever I cough, headache that comes and goes, uncertain body temperature .. Pretty bad huh ?? But I'm still here standing strong, just hope that everything will be fine and I'm not caught up with H1N1 .. =) ..

Well from my point of view, people get sick cause they just don't sweat .. I used to exercise a lot, before the holidays started, I've not been exercising cause I was busy working and did not have the time to sweat it out .. The bloody toxins are all stranded inside me I suppose, which cause me to be sick .. With a "crippled" condition, I don't think I can do any exercise yet .. I want to end this predicament and walk out as a fresh and healthy student as soon as possible .. Will be back to swimming whenever my leg enables me to swim .. =D .. At least I'm sweating .. Haha ..

University workload is increasing day by day .. Test, assignments & homework building up and the dead line are pretty close if I'm not mistaken .. Working hard day by day to achieve what I want, just hope these predicament wouldn't bring down my momentum .. =D .. Barriers are always there to stop us from achieving what we wanted .. We ought to choose how to overcome the barrier, may it be pushing it aside, climbing over it, destroying it or whatsoever .. The result is we need to overcome it by another means, may it be hard but if we try I think we're able to overcome it ..

Well, I think this is some kind of test from god or maybe not ?? .. =/ .. Whatever is it, I will stand strong and fight for my dreams .. Only death can stop me from achieving my dreams, not any other things .. =) .. I don't want to be boasting/bragging, but sometimes there are things in me that gave me the strength, the momentum, the eagerness to achieve what I want .. You can call me stubborn but it sounds better if you say I have a strong determination .. So may it be you or me, I think we all will do anything we can to achieve what we always wanted .. *winks*

I guess I need to get some rest .. It's 1.30 a.m .. Nights 'n' Sweet Dreams .. Take care people, the weather out there is not good .. Everyday people just fall sick easily, drink more water and everything that suppose to be done to keep yourself healthy .. Signing Off with love and cheers .. =D ..

August .. =D

This is the month where I set everything .. My virtual timetable is out, goals have been set, targets are to be achieved and it starts today !! =D .. University life is pretty tough now, loads of homework, assignments & test !!!!

I really want to score an average of 90 if possible, by all means I suppose .. Just have to be really discipline in order to achieve what I want .. =D .. The reason is I really want to go to RMIT to do my remaining two years there .. Cause I think the lecturers in Melbourne itself is better than what I have here in Malaysia .. Cause the lecturers here are okay okay - close to suxxor .. xD .. and that's not only the reason I want to go over to Melbourne, is some sort of my dream to go overseas to study, so the sooner i go there the better .. =D ..

The condition to get my ass over there is to convince my parents that I'm eligible to go there .. I need to do really excellent for my 1st year to prove to them that I'm capable .. So I guess I have to do more than just typing out it here .. So yeah, from now is revision, revision & revision .. All I can say is less online and more to studies .. I'm slowly retiring from dota i suppose, it's pretty boring when my mates are not there to play with me .. So I think it's a good sign and a good start to get me focus on my studies .. =D ..

Well I guess, I should be signing off for now .. Just need to get sufficient sleep to stay alert in classes .. My leg is getting better I suppose, but my mum still insist that I use one crutch to go to classes .. Just hope I have to use till the end of this week, cause next week there's something nice going to happen !!! Woots .. =D .. Alright .. Nights people .. =D ..

X-Rays & Screws .. =D

Pictures are up finally .. Don't really have a good camera but i tried my best .. So take a look .. xD ..

The X-Ray before the screw was extracted ..

After extracting .. =D

After extracting .. =D

After extracting .. =D

After extracting .. =D

Broken Screws .. Wee .. xÞ

Broken Screws .. Wee .. xÞ

Broken Screws .. Wee .. xÞ

Broken Screws .. Wee .. xÞ

Amazing huh ?? This small screw has been supporting me for the past 3 years, and now it's broken into 3 pieces .. It will definitely be a painful experience for me and I will always be very careful while playing sports .. =) .. Hope these things never happen to everyone of you, god bless you all .. Cheers .. *prays hard for everyone* ..

Shall stop here .. Will blog later on .. =)

Life on the Train .. =D

Life is like a train ride. We get on. We ride. We get off. We get back on and ride some more. There are accidents and there are delays. At certain stops there are surprises. Some of these will translate into great moments of joy, some will result in profound sorrow.

When we are born and we first board the train, we meet people whom we think will be with us for the entire journey. Those people are our parents!

Sadly this is far from truth. Our parents are with us for as long as we absolutely need them. They too have journeys they must complete. We live on with the memories of their love, affection, friendship, guidance and their ever presence.

There are others who board the train and who eventually become very important to us, in turn. These people are our brothers, sisters, friends and acquaintances, whom we will learn to love and and cherish.

Some people consider their journey like a jaunty tour. They will just go merrily along. Others will encounter many upsets, tears, losses on their journey. Others still, will linger on to offer a helping hand to anyone in need.

Some people on the train will leave an everlasting impression when they get off. Some will get on and get off the train so quickly, they will scarcely leave a sign that they ever traveled along with you or ever crossed your path.

We will sometimes be upset that some passengers whom we love, will choose to sit in another compartment and leave us to travel on our own. Then again, there's nothing that says we can't seek them out anyway. Nevertheless, once sought out and found, we may not even be able to sit next to them because that seat will already be taken.

That's okay. Everyone's journey will be filled with hopes, dreams, challenges, setbacks and goodbyes. We must strive to make the best of it no matter what. We must constantly strive to understand our travel companions and look for the best in everyone.

Remember that at any moment during our journey, any one of our travel companions can have a weak moment and be in need of our help. We too may vacillate or hesitate, even trip. Hopefully we can count on someone being there to be supportive and understanding.

The bigger mystery of our journey is that we don't know when our last stop will come. Neither do we know when our travel companions will make their last stop. Not even those sitting in the seat next to us.

We're all on this train ride together. above all, we should all try to strive to make the ride as pleasant and memorable as we can, right up until we each make the final stop and leave the train for the last time.

Interesting huh ?? Well I got this email from one of my friends and feel like sharing it with everyone .. Enjoy .. =D .. And still life is like a climb like what Miley Cyrus said in Hannah Montanna the movie .. Yesterday, I just watched the movie after downloading it .. It's a really good movie, no doubts + she's kinda pretty from certain angels .. haha .. =D .. Enjoy the song - The Climb .. =D

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Great News .. =D

Orientation was pretty good today .. After orientation, there are classes to be attended .. Was pretty hectic cause was not prepared for it .. The hours of lectures on Monday is pretty long, lectures were okay okay only but still I have to study and set my targets to achieve what I always wanted all this while .. =D ..

Overall this semester's time table is pretty good, just have to suffer on Mon & Tuesday and a free day on Wednesday .. Pretty balance I should say .. Haha .. Thursday and Friday just a really short time and I have time to chill during the weekends .. So it's time to set my own timetable as well, set it and do it for real .. =D .. 90 for every subjects ?? I hope I can do so .. =D ..

I've got a new baby cousin by the name of Neil .. Haha .. Uncle named him after Neil cause this was the date 40 years ago where Neil Armstrong land his feet on the moon .. According to my uncle, a lot of babies are born today in the hospital itself .. Everyone was waiting for this date to conceive .. Funny huh ??

Man United scored 2 - 0 against .. Awesome .. Tomorrow am wearing the new MU kit .. Hehe .. =D .. Alright time to sleep .. Tomorrow is another hectic day .. 8 - 3 .. With only an hour break in between .. =/ .. Hope I'm able to hang on .. Ciaoz .. =D ..

Thanks for everything .. =D

Was suppose to post up the broken screws and X-Rays but I couldn't get a camera to take the pictures .. Cause my mum's camera is having some problems which I don't know how to fix it, so just have to wait till I upload them .. =D ..

Oh well, uni starts tomorrow .. Am really looking forward to it, I was like having almost 3 months break since April .. Lucky I got a job to kill the 2 months and 14 days to kill the time .. Haha .. Oh well, holidays were pretty okay .. Seriously, it's one of the longest break that I ever had .. Basically have not been doing anything .. Lol .. xÞ ..

University life begins officially on the 20th July 2009, a pretty good date I should say .. =D .. Well I have some resolutions to be fulfilled .. Basically is more about studies, cause from what I heard university life is pretty different from what I have went through in foundation, it's not as easy as it seems .. I try put to put myself in a position in which I want to score high grades in every semester, to achieve that I need to put in 101% in my studies and leave aside unnecessary stuffs such like gaming and all ..

Of cause I wouldn't be a nerd a.k.a bookworm .. All work and no play makes Jack a dumb boy .. xD .. Time management plays an important role here I should say, divide the time between studies and other stuffs .. Well I really hope I can do good starting this 20th July, everything would definetly change, and of cause change for good .. =_) .. I hope I can do rather than just saying it out loud .. Got form no substance that's what people always say when you can say it out but not doing it .. =D ..

All I could say I will miss college life even though I'm still studying under the same college .. Now I have a University life which starts on 20th July .. I'm going to say that it's going to be different and yeah it's going to be interesting as well .. Hehe .. =D .. College life really changed my life, seriously .. =D .. A shout out to my college friends out there that play a part/role in my college life, the ups and downs and everything .. Thanks so much people, and of cause most importantly to that person that changes me some much for my own good .. *winks* .. You all are the best .. =D .. Without you all, I wouldn't be what I am today .. =_) ..

Some of them have left for Australia or maybe other University other than Curtin or RMIT, well all I could say is good luck and have fun while doing their respective courses in their respective universities .. The distance wouldn't be barrier for us to keep in touch with one another .. And for those who will be pursuing the same University with, I will see you all tomorrow .. =D .. And lets hope the best for all of us, graduating at the very same time and all .. =D .. No failures, no pull backs, no drop outs .. That's what I hope for everyone .. Cheers .. =D ..

It's time to rest now I guess .. Orientation starts from 8am to 10am .. Hope it's not going to be boring .. =D .. Ciaoz .. Till then next post .. =_) ..


p.s - 20th July marks the first year .. =D
& thanks for everything .. =)

Home Sweet Home .. =_)

Finally I'm home .. =/ .. It's really suffering staying in the hospital, went through the pain and all .. =/ .. But still I'm glad that I'm still walking but with the help of clutches .. =/ .. Guess I'm back to 3 years back where it all started .. =0 ..

So I was told by the doctor that I was able to walk as normal after extracting the screw out of my ankle before the operation .. So was pretty confident of what he have told me, but end up I have to walk with clutches, but still it's all over and I'm really glad .. =_) .. So what actually happen ?? I went into the operation theater, and the doctor just gave me local anesthetic at my ankle part .. I can't feel anything, but I can hear sounds, feel the blood coming out and all .. Lol ..

Till one part when the doctor was about to unscrew the screw, I can feel the pain so I screamed .. Seriously never felt such pain before .. =/ .. So the doctor decided to put me on full anesthetic to finish the job .. After an hour or more, I was awake and my ankle was fully bandaged but still I can feel the pain .. The doctor explained that the screw was broken cause my bones have eaten into the screw's thread .. I have the broken screws with me .. Will upload the pictures soon ..

So for now I need to rest for a month or more till I can really do sports, I need to wait for my bones to cure as there's a gap in the bones .. =/ .. I will upload the X-ray pictures later on as well .. Hmm .. So I only can swim to exercise .. =_) .. I have a next appointment with doctor and see what is he going to say about next .. Just hope that I don't need to use the clutches when I walk around .. =/ .. It's pretty troublesome but I'm trying to get used to it .. So I guess this Saturday's plan will be all ruined but will see how it goes .. =_) ..

Time to get back to what I've been doing lately .. lol .. Miss my com and bed a lot !! Weee .. xÞ .. Wait till my pictures to be ready to be uploaded .. Don't freak out .. Haha ..

Cool .. =D

Was busy playing Dota on Sunday and barely have enough to rest .. I had a bad day on Monday, cause Streamyx f***ed me up .. I can't do anything and decided to go TM point to see what I can do about it .. End up wasted whole day waiting for an answer to get my Streamyx fixed .. Oh well .. =/ ..

And so today, was suppose to go to SMK Wangsa Melawati to support my school's drama team .. I had to hold back cause the people Streamyx are here to fixed things up for me .. After everything and all it's around 10+, I thought I could still make it and support them .. So, took a cab there .. As I reach there, I saw the boys are out and finished their drama .. I was like damn !! Lol .. But still they are the Champions of Zon Keramat .. Pretty good achievement .. =_) .. I'm waiting for someone to send me the video and take a look at it .. Must be pretty awesome which earn them a place for Champions .. xD .. The other schools were okay, but still SMK Taman Melawati was good as well and they were runner ups, but SJI was better .. xÞ ..

The boys were overjoyed with their achievement and was aiming for Nationals this year .. I'm pretty sure with the hardwork and all they will definetly achieve it .. But their next challenge is to be KL Champions .. One of the hardest they have to go through, cause our rival is there standing strong - VI .. They were last year's KL Champions and they are still strong, I believe the boys have to work pretty hard to win them .. I'm sure they are really committed and they have the crave to be Champions ..

Well back in 2006 I was in the drama team .. It was pretty fun and all but we did not make it to represent Zon Keramat as SMK Taman Melawati and CBN was better .. So we did learn a lot starting then and in 2007 I was not in the drama team and that year itself we were KL Champions .. Haha .. The history of our drama club is pretty awesome ..

A brief history of KL SECONDARY SCHOOL ENGLISH DRAMA COMPETITION. Going back 6 years down the road.

Year 2004
Venue:- Muzium Negara Hall ( hosted by Victoria Institution)
Champions:- Convent Sentul
Runner up:- Raja Abdulah
2nd runner up:- Victoria Institution
Best Actor :- Sashideran (St John's Institution)

Year 2005
Venue:- SMK Convent Sentul Hall ( hosted by Convent Sentul)
Champions:- St John's Institution
Runner up:- Victoria Institution
2nd runner up:- Taman Connought
Best Actor:- Ravinderan Rajalingam ( St John's Institution)

Year 2006
Venue :- Muzium Negara Hall ( hosted by St John's Insitution)
Champions:- Wangsa Melawati
Runner up:- Victoria Institution
2nd runner up:- Convent Bukit Nanas
Best Actor : Jebbie (Convent Bukit Nanas)

Year 2007
Venue:- SMK Wangsa Melawati Hall ( hosted by Wangsa Melawati)
Champions:- St John's Institution
Runner up:- Convent Sentul
2nd Runner up:- Wangsa Melawati
Best Actor:- Izzat Bin Fauzan ( St John's Institution)
Best Script:- Questionable Motives
everyone has a rent to pay ( St John's Institution)

Year 2008
Venue:- SMK Victoria ( hosted by Victoria Institution)
Champions:- Victoria Institution
Runner up:- St John's Institution
2nd Runner up:- Convent Sentul
Best Actor :- Isaac ( Victoria Institution)
Best Script:- The Picture
everyone deserves a friend ( St John's Institution)


Do the Math. All About Johannians.
- In 4 Years 3 times top 2 schools in KL. ( 2005,2007,2008)
- Champions twice in 3 years ( 2005,2007)
- Won Best actor award twice in a row ( 2004,2005)
- 3 best actor awards in 4 years ( 2004,2005,2007)
- The only school that has won Best Script and as many as twice ( 2007,2008)
- Once they are Champions they win all awards that is up for grab( 2005,2007)
- The only School that has won all awards in a single competition ( 2005,2007)
- Even if the are not Champions they will at least bring back an award (2004,2008)
- The only school that has won at least an award in the competition (2004,2005,2007,2008)

The history was adopted from my senior in facebook .. Haha .. =D .. As you can see year 2006 is pretty empty .. Lol .. But still overall it is still awesome !! St. John is the best .. Fide et Labore (Faith and Zeal) ..

Alright I shall stop here, time to get some rest .. =D .. I will not be around till Thursday .. I will be going for a operation to unscrew my screw out of my ankle, it's a minor operation and hope everything will go well .. Till then I will blog about the operation and all .. Cheers ..

Transformers .. =D

Went out today to meet up with my group of friends, this is a different group cause I'm not the person that organize this meeting and all .. But still it's pretty fun with the chatting and all ..

And yeah I finally get to watch Transformers 2 : Revenge of the Fallen .. Woo Megan Fox is smoking hot .. Seriously .. Haha .. Awesome huh ?? Lol .. Overall I can rate this movie 4/5 with the plot and everything .. Looking forward towards Transformers 3 and Megan Fox as well .. Hehe .. The another movie that I'm looking forward is Jennifer's Body, cause it's acted by Megan Fox as well .. I'm sure it would be nice .. *winks*

Look at her !! Haha !! Way too hot !!

Alright enough of Megan Fox, if not you all will think I'm obsessed or something .. Haha ..

Hmm .. Was looking forward to some plans that have planned by my friend .. Footsal and basketball during the weekends .. Ahh .. Can't wait to play cause I've been lazing around in front of the com doing nothing, I'm pretty lazy to get my ass of the computer to do some exercise .. Lol .. But luckily didn't gain any extra pounds .. Tee Hee .. Hmm .. Well I will try my best to work out more and cause later on I wouldn't be able to do much exercise .. Will blog about it sooner or later .. xD ..

So I guess I'll stop right here .. More post to come .. =D .. BB ..

Cheer 2009 .. =D

Went to Cheer 2009, overall it is awesome, the crowd, the chicks, the atmosphere and all .. But most importantly get to meet up with my schoolmates .. Haha .. Well, actually I'm not a fan of any cheer leading teams, but some just support shirtliff .. Haha .. Basically I just go there to meet up with my school mates .. =D .. Well I started going to cheer comp since 2007, if I'm not mistaken ( was supposed to go 2006 but I broke my ankle) .. That's a really long story which I'm pretty lazy to tell it out why I started to go to cheer comp since then .. Just that I missed out 2008's cheer comp & I'm still wondering how could I miss out such prestigious event last year .. Hmm .. =/ ..

Talking about cheer 2009, surprisingly the chicks grow from year to year, growing like mushroom .. Seriously .. Haha .. It's good to look .. xD .. Alright cut the chicks crap .. Hehe .. Well in terms of performing, it's nice and all .. Well but still need to congratulate all the teams that won today, they fight their hearts out in this competition with tears and blood .. Well all I could say is good job to Shirtliff as they are 4 times champions and they manage to get 1st runner this year .. It's pretty hard to be champions for back to back (they are 2008 champions) cause teams grow strong from time to time, unless the teams are really good and consistent .. Cause in many things that we do, we can't be champions all the time, take a very good example Manchester United, they were UEFA champions for 2008 but failed this year .. Well all the hardwork sure pay it off .. =D .. There's always another year ahead .. =D .. All I could say is we need the hard work and a lil bit of luck to achieve what we want .. *winks*

So after the cheer comp we went to Sri Petaling for dinner, fun as usual .. Haha .. After dinner head back to home .. I just love my bed and computer .. Hehe .. Well, it's pretty good to have this kind of gathering, cause everyone of us leaving our dear country, Malaysia .. For now lets just home we can hang out as often as we can, cause once they leave this country it's gona be very long till we meet up again .. =/ ..

Time to relax and chill .. Will update my blog again .. =D