CKS Gathering 2008 and MR's Birthday Party

It's been 6 years since I met my primary school friends, one of them plan to gather .. So today I went to Pavilion to meet up with them .. As usual , I will be always the earliest and have to wait till everyone arrive .. Not all those that are invited turn up , given reasons that they are busy and doing some stuff ..

It's really nice to meet them , from ugly ducklings to swans , short to tall and some didn't even change .. This what we call as puberty .. Lol .. It's really shocking and felt rather regretted cause when I was young and naive did some stuff that left them bad impressions and now it's really hard to know them better .. Lol .. Have a nice chat with them but not all of them , cause most of them are from other classes and busy chatting among themselves .. The organizer decided to go to TGI's Friday to have branch .. The food there was nice and has a big portion .. It's my first time in TGI , found the atmosphere is nice there .. =) ..
After branch we took some pictures but will upload it some other day ..

Hmm , with all the chats and pictures I think is a really good gathering but I found it rather disappointing and I don't really want to talk about it cause it's all over and no point talking about it .. I need to leave it a side cause now I really have to get on with my 2 presentations and journal .. I don't sad and disappointing stuffs to hold me back from what I'm doing ..

This is why I don't really like to go out , sometimes is like wasting time and money doing something not worth doing , unless I really have a good time like I used to go out with my bunch of friends .. Now I know why communication is so important like what I learn from Human Communication ..

After that ,I went to Min Ray's birthday party .. It was a very cool party , cause we get to flour and egg him .. Haha .. Actually me, Jus , CK , Theng and TL wanted to go to Tbun for dota and watch football after that .. But I have to go home cause my dad's back from Philippines and I don't want to create more conflict .. Kinda disappointed my mates , but I just can do anything .. Took LRT from cempaka till titiwangsa and TL's mother send me back home ..

I have to start work now .. Thanks Guys & Girls .. =) .. We shall meet some other day !!!!!

Busy

Went back to hometown on Saturday with my mum to celebrate father's day with my grandparents and came back on Sunday .. As usual I will only drive to the highway , and my mum will drive the hill way which leads to my hometown .. That road is so challenging and yet I was not given the chance to drive !!!! Haha .. Maybe the next trip to my hometown I will get the chance to drive ..

Now, I'm busy doing my human communication presentation and journal .. Dead line is next week and journal the another week .. It's not easy to do unless I'm doing it alone , cause I don't really like group presentations cause it's kinda hard to discuss cause we stay in different areas and sometimes very hard to communicate with them .. Lol .. My subject is Human Communication and yet I at times having hard time communicating with my group .. The next presentation is the English presentation .. This presentation is due next week as well .. So u can imagine the amount of pressure exerting towards me .. Lol ..

Something Special

Hmm .. Today had 2 tests , Malaysian studies and Human Communication .. I think I did quite well even though I did not really study .. Don't think I'm smart cause I finish early and leave the lecture hall early , my principle is that just finish it and don't waste time thinking if you're ain't to sure about the answers if I don't really study .. No point sitting down and crack your head thinking about the answers .. The answers won't just come out if you didn't study , even if you have the chances are low .. Haha .. =) .. Now there is Economics quiz and English quiz coming .. And 2 more presentations .. =) ..

Saw a teddy bear at my mom's flower shop .. Kinda cute and written something special

F - Forgives your mistakes
L - Loves you for who you are
U - Understands you
F - First love in my life
F - Forever love you
Y - You are the one !!!!

Isn't it sweet ?? I wish I could give this bear to the special one in my life .. =) .. Cause its so meaningful and special .. Maybe I should make the move but it's still kinda early to make the move .. It's not that I don't dare , it's just it will make people feel awkward and I will just loose her .. Maybe get to know her better and give her time to know me better as well .. But thats not the point , it's a bout whether we have the chance to be together or not .. If it doesn't , than it's OK , can slowly choose and have fun when you're single .. Haha .. Anyone of you want to give it to your gf/bf , can place an order through me .. Yea , I'm helping my mum to do business .. Hehe ..

Bad Day !!!!

Hmm .. Was kinda tired today .. Don't know why .. I'm getting pissed of with public transport now .. Today waited for 1 hour for the damn bus , and took 1 hour to reach wangsa maju .. Why the **** the government improve the service, all they know is feed the stupid ministers with the people's money and increase the petrol price .. They are adding oil to the fire instead of ease the burden of the people .. BN should really be taken over .. =) ..

Ahh .. Someone's sick but I can't help but only support morally .. =( .. Is making me feel uneasy as well , don't know why but I just feel uneasy .. Had a bad night today , lazy to talk about it or maybe I would like to disclose it in my presentation tomorrow .. It depends on my mood of cause .. Sometimes I just don't understand whether is my fault or the other people's fault .. I just don't like why they will put other people as their main priority compare to their family members .. If they are saying we are the flesh and bone , why can't they treat them as one . Maybe they did put a lot of love but I just can't feel it .. I've never show my love to them , is not that I don't want to , I just don't know how to explain ..

I really need someone out there to really console me and help me out .. I don't know why maybe its nature , like I said I tend to listen others than my parents , maybe I'm same as those person I mentioned earlier , put people as the main priority rather than family members ..

I think we really should appreciate the person we love most now , not till they have passed on or something .. Is always to late to regret .. Trust me .. I'm telling it but I'm not doing it cause I'm like cold blooded , cause I always look things from the bright side and I see things from different perspective. I tend to be happy always and will get pissed off when meet some ****ed people .. I'm maybe expressing my anger but I don't really put the problems I face in my heart and I don't store them deep in my heart .. I just forget about it when the next day started cause I feel that it will make my day better rather than keeping those bad experience in my heart and kept thinking about it ..

Today might be a bad day, but tomorrow I will forget about it .. =) .. No hard feelings , is just that the people around me will be very angry and will keep in hard for those things that I said to them .. They suffer more than I do and I don't really care cause its their problem and not mine .. =) .. Thats all for now .. =)

Hmmmmm!!!

Today went to college early , took indon mee goreng .. Haha .. After that went to computer lab to make a few changes of my assignments than handed it up to my lecturer.. When she's in class she call us to count the number of words , with some thing important .. I have to fake the number of words as I did not reach the minimum number of words for the assignment.. Nevertheless I still passed it up now I'm so relieved ..

Play DoTa , with Theng and Justin .. Still can't stop Dota .. Haha .. We are so good that we pawned .. =) .. Forming a new team now but lack of 1 more team mate .. =) ..

Just now took dinner with SK , treat her as I promised as a birthday gift .. Than I met Denise, yeah she's back from Terengganu with a gold medal , I congratulated her .. I also invited her to join us for dinner but she's having dinner with her parents .. I still owe her treat as well .. Lol .. Haha .. For her achievement of cause .. =)

Hmmm .. Lots of work to be done later on , I've not plan to start it .. Don't know why seems to be lost or something .. =) .. Haha .. Economics is getting nicer , I seems to be interested in it .. I don't know why , or it is because of another person that has the same interest in the same subject .. Hehe .. =) .. I'm kinda happy nowadays , I just don't know why .. =) ..

OK .. Thats all for now .. =)

Blogging Rocks !!!!!

Blog is a good source of finding your friend .. Guess what , I managed to get contact with my very old primary school mate .. Man is like 9 years back lol .. I some how found her through a friend's blog .. Lol .. Is really nice u know .. Haha .. Memories are brought back automatically, even it is bad .. =)

Alright now I'm done with my assignment.. Woots !!!! But there are 2 more presentations coming and a couple of tests !!!!!! Guess my course is very hectic but I'm still on the mood and on the run to overcome it .. Hehe .. Ntg can bring me down .. =) .. Wee .. Just in need for the special one but not that desperate thou .. Lol .. than my college life would be nice but it would take time to get one ..

After 2 weeks of holidays , my friends are going back to school and college .. Haha .. They complain 2 weeks is not enough >< .. Man .. I guess is more than enough thou unless u guys want to work during the holidays .. Haha ..

My back is getting from bad to worse .. I think is due to the number of hours I'm sitting in front of the com .. I have to stop doing it to save my back .. Arghh .. I think I really have to stop being a dumb fellow facing the computer everyday .. Please I have to be determined , I really have to stop unless I really need to use the computer to do my assignments !!! =)

Lifeless Me !!!!!

Woke up around 9 today and started to dota + do assignments till now .. Until now only wrote 300++ words .. 700 more words to go ..

My life now is pretty lifeless when my dad is working outstation .. I'm getting overboard cause when his not around no one can control me accept for myself .. BahhHHH !! When can i stop this habit ?? I really want to change but its kinda difficult .. I think I really have to stop it and stop being a lier to myself and others .. =( .. Someone have to really help me !!! Maybe a companion really helps a lot .. =) .. Cause I'm the kind of person who tends to listen more to others rather than my parents , than makes me rebellious .. I really want to change but it seems impossible unless someone out there can change me .. =) ..

Bahhh ... Kinda frustrated now .. Regretted for all the dumb things that I have done , doing stuffs that disappoint my parents .. Maybe I have to really make the initiative to really change and not make my parents feel sad and worry about me .. Haih .. When will I change???