Lifeless Me !!!!!

Woke up around 9 today and started to dota + do assignments till now .. Until now only wrote 300++ words .. 700 more words to go ..

My life now is pretty lifeless when my dad is working outstation .. I'm getting overboard cause when his not around no one can control me accept for myself .. BahhHHH !! When can i stop this habit ?? I really want to change but its kinda difficult .. I think I really have to stop it and stop being a lier to myself and others .. =( .. Someone have to really help me !!! Maybe a companion really helps a lot .. =) .. Cause I'm the kind of person who tends to listen more to others rather than my parents , than makes me rebellious .. I really want to change but it seems impossible unless someone out there can change me .. =) ..

Bahhh ... Kinda frustrated now .. Regretted for all the dumb things that I have done , doing stuffs that disappoint my parents .. Maybe I have to really make the initiative to really change and not make my parents feel sad and worry about me .. Haih .. When will I change???

Coooooolllllllllll !!!

Went to college around 8 .. Finish my English homework than after that went to TBS with Vic and Yuki cause there is some young entrepreneur thingy there .. I went there cause want to find hot chicks , met a few chicks .. I guess they're older or something .. All those students are crazy selling their stuffs .. I hate a group of dumb cotton candies girls , so noob man till we have to avoid them when we saw them .. Lol ...

I met Andrew , my NS friend , look so cool thou but din manage to talk to him long cause his rushing for class .. =) .. Other than that , I also met my cousin from Terengganu , chat with her for a couple of minutes than went back to college .. Before that , I bought a teddy bear phone strap from her store .. There was this guy kept persuading me to get something from their stall , I almost turn him down when a girl that was hot persuade me .. Lol .. Man I'm so soft when come to girls which are hot and trying to persuade me to get their stuffs .. Anyways I gave the teddy bear phone strap to Vic since she said it was cute .. =)

Anyways I won myself a new bag and a key chain but I gave it to Li Hoe since I kept disturbing and calling him names .. He look so cham man .. Lol .. The gifts were from this talk that talks about our career in our future .. I kinda like the new personality test cause is like damn accurate but too bad I can't share with u guys cause the counselor was showing the slides way to fast ..

I have a MS test later and I haven study .. Lol .. But its a multiple choice question so it won't be much pain the ass .. Lol .. Haha .. The thing that I haven't do is my research question cause I'm kinda lazy in doing it .. >< !!! Alright gtg now , have to finish up my accounts homework and get a good rest tonight cause tomorrow is another tough day .. =)

Pissed Off

Man .. I just reached home after finishing class at 5.30 .. Stayed at college till 6.00 cause its raining heavily .. After that went to the bus stop and waited till 7.30 till the damn bus arrived and it took around 1 hour 15mins till I reached KJ .. Fucked up rumors that cause the city jam like hell .. Screw those people that simply spread the damn petrol price thingy ..

I reached my mum office around 8.40 than i took so long till I reached home .. Was kinda pissed off today cause the total hours that I waited and traveled is way 2 long .. But at least is over , anyways mum mum's car petrol still left 1/4 and I'm not sure whether we can get petrol tomorrow .. Haha ..

Relieved

Just finished my test and now in the computer lab updating my blog .. =) .. The test was quite easy even though I did not really study .. Haha .. At least now I'm relieved , but I still got the research question to finish and 2 more presentations than it will be nice ..

My college mates are kinda funny cause they don't really believed me when I say I don't study at home .. Its the fact but they just keep saying I prepared well at home and they say cause my face is like those good boy .. I think my skool mates know me better than them .. Haha ..

Can I Take It ??

Went to the dentist today to fixed my upper brackets .. Its kinda suffering now but its worth the result .. =) .. Nevertheless I can take this opportunity to eat less cause I really can't eat any damn thing except for porridge .. =) .. Haha

Anyways today I wasted whole day doing nothing .. I have loads of homework that has not been done and 2 presentation + 1 research question coming and quiz + tests .. I am very sure most of my course mates are having trouble and are nervous as well .. I'm still cool but I really have to work my time out in order to finish all those course work .. I haven even start studying my economics where I have a 20% test this Thursday .. I'm hoping for the best to try to recall all the things that the lecturer taught .. Lol ..

Look at the loads of pressure on me .. Haha .. I guess I can handle it well but with a little bit of sacrifice of cause .. I finally deleted off ROSEOnline , an online game which I spend most of the time playing , apart from DOTA .. At least , now I have a little extra room to study and finish off everything that hasn't been done .. Seriously you just can't quit DOTA , its not addictive but its the passion for it .. No matter how left out from the DOTA world , you're still able to get back to the form with a few games .. Its magical .. Its not like other things , especially study .. Cause studying is not a 1 day effort but is accumulated , I've been telling myself to study and play less but it seems this time I'm the one who is barking to the wall .. =0

It is really pain the ass when you failed something whether is result or something .. But failure is not always a bad thing , take failure as one of the obstacles and learn from it I guess .. Even break ups is not a bad thing , cause its just another obstacle .. Lol .. Even though I have not really experience a break up .. Forget about it .. Lol .. What I'm trying to emphasize here is that , everything we do can be good or bad and we only learn about them after doing them .. Cause its very natural , unless we can predict the future and maybe learn from other's mistake ..

Alrite thats all for now .. Tomorrow is another day , have to finish my homework and assignments in the library tomorrow .. Ciao ..

~JL~

Great but Tired Day

Did not update blog lately cause dad was busy doing accounts .. =0 .. Due date is June and his going to finish .. =) !!!!

Hmm .. Today finally get to play basketball for real after so many months .. Haha .. Although we got trashed 4 1 but I was satisfied with Chris n Chi Yen .. Great team members .. Even though we're not that good but we managed to hold the opponent .. =) .. I was tapped by a guy which is very tall and nothing embarrassed cause I was tap several time back in secondary .. Haha .. .. After the game , I wanted to call Ho and Vin Son to pick me up but they left earlier cause they thought I was playing in the game and the picked up the god damn phone .. Lol ..

Decided to take the bus back , as I step out of the college , my damn bus has arrived I was running like mad to catch up with the bus and managed to hop onto the bus .. =) .. So tiring and yet still have to run to get the bus .. Later on I reached KJ station , guess who I met ?? Mao .. Haha .. Managed to chat with him for few minutes and took the train back ..

Actually I wanted to go home early and sleep till next morning but I change my mind .. Instead I called Ho n Vin Son and asked them whether they have taken their dinner or not .. We managed to have dinner together and chatted for quite a long time since we never meet each other for so long .. Thanks for the treat VS .. Owe u 1 .. =)

Soon we decided to head to the CC near my house .. We played 1 round of DoTa but lost due to Ho's com which was laggy but he was kinda pro thou with the lag he still can farm.. =) Cheers Ho .. Haha .. After that VS send me back to my house .. Really had a great day 2day .. =) ..

But I was rather disappointed cause of something around me has really changed .. I couldn't belief that the thing has really changed and the thing is really shocking cause it wasn't the thing that I saw back then .. I don't know what happened but I guess is the environment and that changes it .. I only sit down and hope that it won't ruin me as well .. I really hope it can be the old one where everyone is satisfied and happy .. =0 .. I might mis seen this thing or maybe sometimes things really changed by their selves and we have to accept and adapt with the change .. Sometimes we don't just sit back and think about ourselves , we really have to look into people's feelings as well .. I'm not beating around the bush now .. I really have to say I was very disappointed with you , Justin .. But after reading your blog , I can accept what you are now and will be friends forever .. Sometimes we as friends around should talk things out and not just judge Justin from his doings .. Is really unfair for him thou , maybe his right or maybe is wrong .. We can't really determined till we talk things out and accept him as who he is now .. Sometimes we need a private life and till a certain extend and we really can't lived without friends I have something specialy for u Justin =) and for my friends out there ..

If a lover is like the moon then friends are like the stars ..
Have u noticed that the sky can look beautiful without the moon but not without stars ..
Every friend of mine is my star in the dark gloomy sky and shine brightly ..

Cheers Justin .. Friends Forever .. =)

Half Way Through The Course

Once again was very busy to update .. Lol .. =)

Presentation is over and small tests as well .. Kinda relieved thou but they are more presentations , tests and research question coming ..

Seriously , don't have any idea on what to write these days .. =) .. Lol

Hmm .. The girl that I mentioned on my previous post seem to be missing .. Lol .. Can't seem to find spot/find her .. Haha .. I guess we have no fate .. =) .. Who cares ?? Lol .. Mayb some other day .. =Þ ..

Ciaoz .. >< !!!